My parents make me feel so guilty for having guy friends. It doesn’t help that both of those friends don’t even live here so to my parents the friendship sounds even more “fake” and every boy who is willing to travel a distance to see me MUST have certain things on his mind other than friendship, god forbid. No parents, they don’t want to come here to make me their girlfriend or marry me or kidnap me or rape me. They’re just friends and I’m going to see them one day eventually. No need to stress about the people in my life and their intentions towards me. I’m fine.
I have a huge headache because of this. I hadn’t eaten dinner. I’m stressed with school. I have so much writing to do and I’m so lazy and unmotivated. I was crying while making my sandwich because it’s so ironic how my parents said i need to be careful with guys because they don’t want to see me get hurt in any way yet by not trusting me they are the ones who hurt me the most. It’s like, when have I ever done stupid things? Would you please just trust me a little? God.